(over used gay metaphor so SUE ME :P lol)
had one very pleasant dream last night, was about the farm we're trying to put together a proposal for. Small cottage thats been earth housed (think hobbit hole), a wind mill, chickens running in the yard, goats gnoshing grass under the trees, lush green garden teaming with veggies, small orchard of apple & pear trees...you know, perfect. I'd have a gas range to cook on and a little fire place to sit in front of & read in the winter evenings with blaine. Big dog napping on the braided rug. no cars in sight & you can sit on the porch & listen to the bird & the crickets at night and never hear the sounds of the city not too far away, but far enough to be peaceful.
i really do kind of want a plot more toward the edge of town...not the suburbs HELL NO, but kind of like this place here: http://web.mac.com/newberryhouse/Newberry_House/Home.html its a little too far out, if it wasn't we'd be asking if we could move there in a heartbeat, its SOOOO ideal. I want something like that, only we're not aiming for a village, just a private farm on a small 1-2 acre plot. Blaine wants to be in town if possible, i'd really rather be a bit further out if i HAVE to stay here...he's going to have to compromise with me on this one, if we're not moving to canada then i want someplace near the city but not smack in it if its avoidable.
I told him one afternoon(before he fell apart & decided he didn't want to move to canada after all...even though HE was the one who recommended it) that i want out of here and i want to see brouchers that say 'come visit beautiful car free portland' before i come back. He wants to stay here & affect the necessary changes to make that happen (thats been one of the goals of his schooling all this time) i'm just extremely impatient and want away from it all. I know the city CAN change in the ways it needs to (especially if we STOP letting the damn suburbs force to drag our feet in our progress) and the city CAN be a beautiful amazing car free place, we COULD have a transit system that even Vancouver BC would envy and be a jewel of the continent & the metropolis oasis of the west coast...WE COULD...CAN DO IT...but its gonna take time & patience is just something i don't have a LOT of in this instance...i want away from it all for a while, i want out. i wish i could just take a vacation from my body & life for a week (or a month :P) just go away for awhile, escape it all...but i have responsiblities & a home & small family to care for.
I just want a break...a vacation...a respit, anything.
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